birdlungs

ocean breath, exhale.

2009-06-16T18:18:42Z

i am missing layers of skin,
i am skipping heart beats.

i dont know what im looking for,

2009-06-14T06:20:48Z

but im looking for something; i think the quiet will lead me to it.

if only i could be quiet.

chasing dreams

2009-06-13T03:16:20Z

ahem.

maps.

2009-05-31T04:25:02Z

i want to unfold you.
i am spreading myself so thin,
i will follow your veins like roads.
i want to break in your arms.
i want to read your skin and bones like my favorite book.
i want to be safe with you.

and i recall

2009-02-08T06:36:28Z

its uncomfortable, but its easy.
when there's nowhere else to go -
you always go back to the same place.

give up

2009-02-06T05:25:56Z

we dont have any god-damn food.
and we dont have any god-damn money.

postal codes

2009-01-14T06:28:05Z

hello friends,
in an attempt to be creative, write more, bring joy to others, etc. etc. i have decided to join the post card industry. if any of you would like to receive one of these creations, please send me a message with your address :]

six, seven, eight, nine

2009-01-11T01:41:56Z

i am waiting, and my stomach is sick.
my hot chocolate is 3 hours old, and not hot anymore.
my fingers are cold, my shoulders, neck, and back too.
i am in a busy room, i dont know anyone anymore.

i am so tired, and unwilling to sleep.

please, let everything get easy.

all systems go

2009-01-01T10:55:16Z

we got dressed up
to play scattegories with strangers.
she painted her fingernails red,
and tested the different shades on my pinkie.

we drove to the city, and the rain came pouring down.
my windshield wipers were broken -
headlights flashed past.
all of the warnings were of drunk drivers,
luckily we did not meet one.

we danced in the kitchen, without music.
someone made brownies,
someone else ate five cupcakes.
the ball dropped, and the fireworks went off.

we are safe right now.

eight minutes until morning

2008-12-31T07:56:26Z

i want everything to be an act of love.

if you play the girl, i'll play the guy

2008-12-30T07:06:50Z

finger prints
broken lips
young skin
muted sounds
"hello officer"
windows up
itssocoldicanseemybreath
maps
rivers
lungs
street lights
dim
to a

f l i c k e r

12/24/08

2008-12-27T08:04:21Z

dear girl,
i love you so much. this is our first night apart since i can remember.
wrap yourself in my fleece, and feel my arms holding you. i am periodically tightening my grip so you dont forget im here. i am whispering "i love you" into your ear, and into your lips. i am patting your chest and breathing steadily, so you will too.
i am curled up behind you, keeping you safe.

you are mine, my girl, as i am yours. these hours will pass quickly and i will be home soon.

i will be home soon.

i love you my darling, sleep well tonight. tomorrow will come and go as if it never happened.

you are so strong my love, believe it. and if you cannot, believe in my strength for i will always protect you.

love,
leland.

familiar pills and dangerous hopes

2008-12-26T17:54:32Z

i am craving the numbness i used to know so well,

im just so tired.

hello

2008-12-25T04:37:48Z

i am leland. my chest feels empty, and my veins are filled with water - not blood.